The fear of making the nonconscious conscious
A Releasing Your Unlimited Creativity discussion topic
Copyright 2008 by K. Ferlic, † All Rights Reserved
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We are an infinite creative being and as an aspect of the consciousness within, or behind, Creation. We have an a nonconscious mind which permeates all of creation. To access the infinity of our being, we need to both be willing to face our fear and make aspect of our nonconscious mind conscious. Facing our fears is necessary for our fears help to sustain the illusion of mind and prevent us from seeing the true depth and breadth of our creativity and who and what we really are.
Whether we realize it or not, all we experience we ultimately cause by the choices we make. But the choices we make function at different levels of being. Our beliefs can be seen as being layered. That is, some beliefs underlay and are more fundamental than others. To access how and why we experience the pain we do, we need to go inward to the appropriate level of our being and look to make aspects of our nonconscious mind conscious. For some, making the nonconscious conscious can be frightening. But it is only dealing with and facing our fears and going within will we get to the root of what gives rise to our pain.
The following is an exceptionally good statement as to typical feelings and concerns, often unexpressed by individuals, about making the aspects of the nonconscious mind conscious.
"I am very cautious about blindly searching the subconscious for the mystery within. It seems to me that you are proposing short cuts to inner vision by setting an intention to remove particular beliefs without understanding how they interconnect with the rest of the person. It appears to me the dangers are very great because we donít know what lurks in the subconscious and it is capable of swallowing us as well as nourishing us. If that spirit within seizes our immature or enculturated ego it could become a daemon or beast and throw aside all that we value including the most basic human values. It would seem we have the possibility of descending from our goal to become something superhuman, above how we now exist, to something subhuman below the most basic human values. This catches my attention and is of great concern to me. I have concern (rank terror) about throwing out tribal beliefs will-nilly and experimenting to see what arises. I think we are naive and without putting some safety systems around this proposed process, I will undertake only the least threatening tribal (survival) beliefs. It seems some of the safety systems one can put in place are: telling a trusted friend what one is doing and him or her observe us over time; plan to undertake only a limited number of beliefs, general intentions that encompass hundreds of manifests are too much for me."
Realizing the fears that are expressed here are valid and real for many individuals one may ask, "Given the concerns expressed here, what is to be gained in taking such an adventure?" The answer as to what can be gained in such an adventure is truly fantastic and leads to the ultimate mystical experience and to experience the infinity of our own being.
Although there are a variety of individuals who have had a mystical experience of the infinity of our own being, one exceptionally good example described in modern terminology is found in the experience of Dr Jill Bolte Taylor beginning in December 1996. Her experience is one of the best example of what is to be experienced. That is, an experience of an awareness of infinite proportion confined within the limits and boundaries of a human body. The idea and one of the goals of the Releasing Your Unlimited Creativity material is to have such an experience it without the need for a stroke, pain or some extended spiritual/esoteric discipline or stumbling into it as in the Ultimate Accident as required in the past for the understanding of humanity has sufficient progressed to provide an alternative way to live our life.
In realizing what can be gained, the question then becomes "How are such fears addressed?" The topic "Dealing with fears" provides some thought as to how to address our personal fear. As for dealing with the fears of another individual, as discussed in the topic, "Working with the fear in another" all we can do is mitigate or compensate the true hazard within the fear and continually invite the individual back into the experience. They will have to face their fears in their own way.
What is provided here are some thoughts and considerations which can be used to mitigate and compensate for the real hazard and/or issues expressed within the statement above. Whether or not the fears are faced is the individualís choice. All that can be done is provided the information and then continually provide the opportunity and invite them into the experience they fear.
Relative to the fear addressed in the statement above, three things need to be understood. One is that we cannot fear the unknown. We can only fear the past. If we think and believe the way we have in the past and we live our life and make our choices in life as we did in the past we will most definitely have to face the fears of the past. Or, if not the fears of the past, the root cause which gave rise to the fears. Even if we address the hazards in the fear, the mind which created those fears will still think and believe in such a way to create new fears. Here we need to realize the mind that creates the problem we face is not the mind that will solve the problem. If we wish to move past the fears we need a new and different way of thinking and believing and a new perception to destroy the root of the fears and from where the fears arise. If one is able to accept the basic premises in the Releasing Your Unlimited Creativity understanding and material, a new perspective, creativity perspective, where we hold our creativity sacred is provided which allows one to move past the mind of the past.
The second thing is there are some real issues associated with the fear that do need to be addressed. They are not necessarily hazard but the are issues none the less. To step into nonconscious mind is to step into the mystical aspects of our being and the unseen. In the past there have been individuals in every society that have tied to take such a journey in one way or another. Some who attempted such a journey have become have become "lost." Some stumble into it and experience the Ultimate Accident and return with an enlightenment and/or shamanic type abilities. There are powers and energies that we access that any individual current mind may not be full aware of how to use.
There is an old Kaballah story of four religious scholars who studied the secrets of the Kaballah, the mystical text of Judaism. One went crazy, one died, one became an atheist and the other a mystic. It is reported the recommendation made by traditional Kaballah scholars before someone studies the mysteries of the Kaballah are the individual be over forty years old, married and well grounded in and practicing the traditional teaching of Judaism. So, in taking a traditional approach there are real hazard to face. There is the question as to whether or not there is a non traditional approach that can address the hazards and makes such concern unnecessary and yet not be in any given tradition. The answer is yes. There are way to mitigate those hazards and not be wedded to any given tradition and ultimately captured by that tradition.
As a result of the exploration into our inherent creativity, the results of the exploration to find an alternative way and incorporating the lessons learned of others who have taken similar a similar journey, the true hazards and issues expressed in the above statement and in the Kaballah story can be addressed. The Releasing Your Unlimited Creativity material captures this understanding. The reasons why one individual would go crazy, one die, one become an atheist and the other a mystic are addressed. Similarly the reasons for the need for being over forty years old, being married and well trained and practicing a given tradition are also addressed. Such a journey to make our nonconscious conscious can be made very safe if we are willing to become wise and becoming wise and finding wisdom is not a hard as we my suspect and have been lead to believe. We all come with the truth within our being. We only need to go within to find it and learn to live our truth in whatever form it takes. Learning our truth and living it of course raises a new set of fears. Namely all the reason why we donít live our truth already.
The third thing is that there are aspects of our being that we could call our dark side. That is, there are aspects of our being that of which we remain unaware and/or lied buried and dormant within our being. Many believe if these aspects of our being are released, we would become the embodiment of them. As suggested in the statement above, we could descend from our goal to become something superhuman, above how we now exist, to something subhuman below the most basic human values.
There is a truth to this belief but there is a deeper truth which negates this concern. The way to understand it is quite simply. To know we have a dark side and can look at an individual who seems to be living this dark side and say the following in full awareness of its truth, "There but for the grace of God go I" the foundation is set to never have to fear what lies in our dark side. There is an old Native American proverb which states, "Do not judge another unless you have walked a mile in their moccasin's." Quite simply, if we had the same experiences of life, all of them, as another, we would most probably respond to life as they do. Relative to our dark side, it is already there. It is just not an aspect of our being we have every faced or wanted to admit lies there. Given the correct conditions in life what is in our dark side will come out are reveal itself all by itself. We need to do nothing. The correct experience of life will draw it out.
However, if we become aware of what lies within, when conditions of life present themselves to cause this dark side to surface, our awareness will give us the options of choosing how we will respond to the condition causing this dark side to arise. A simply example may provide an insight as to how this works. As part of the journey into the exploration of our creativity, the author chose to visit the elementary school in which he received his early education in life. Since his nephew was a part time janitor at the school he asked his brother if he would be allowed to walk through the school and visit the classrooms when no one was there. It was arranges and the author and his brother visited the school and all the classrooms in which they both were educated. Upon leaving and walking home. The author upon reflections said to his brother, "You know, we would have made perfect Nazis." He brother replied, "I know."
The point here is that the over riding memories of the school was that the author was taught to follow order of those in charge. Do not question authority in any way or be punished. Those in authority have been given that authority by God and we are not to question the wisdom of God. Such a belief and way of living castrates the inner masculine and lays the seed for an individual to become the servant of any authoritarian figure good or evil.
Our awareness, the true essence of who and what we are, observes and experiences. It lives in the now, the present, without a past or future. It see what is as it is. Our awareness never really changes, it only expands into a larger more profound awareness. Our mind is the collection of all that we think, believe and have experienced. It, in reality is always changing as a result of the experiences we have. It only appears to be unchanging. Relative to our awareness, mind is a very power authority figure. The mind and the ego mind creates can point to its experience it has had and tell the awareness, "What you feel is not truth, what you have experienced the way you experienced is not the truth. Stop trying to follow those ridiculous feelings and act on what I, mind, knows and has experienced." Most end up following their mind and never seeing Creation for what it really is and are unable to access the awareness in feeling which available to us in every feeling we have.
But when we come to know the mind, the true nature of mind and the illusion of mind, we do not need to fear what lies in our nonconscious mind. Our awareness is more than adequate to handle the mind if it learns to harness the mind and especially harness the ego. Otherwise it becomes the slave to the mind and ego. There is no need to fear the dark side and what lies outside our conscious mind for we are already controlled by the dark side in that we are unable to see past the illusion of mind to see the dark and light are only flip side to the same coin. One does not, and cannot, exist without the contrast of the other. We are both. It is just that we have chosen by our mind to live in the awareness of one or the other than to live in the awareness we are both only choosing to experience one as light in contrast to the other for whatever we may have and whatever reason we may give ourselves.
It has been found in the journey of the exploration of our creativity and the journey to find an alternative way to live life that each of these three issues discussed above can be effectively addressed. In fact, a faster, easier and gentler way to have an experience of our infinite being is available to us as compared to past ways. The key to this faster, easier and gentler way and to address the types and kinds of issues and fears expressed in the statement above is to understand the fact we have simultaneously have a localized and non localized awareness much like the wave particle nature of energy. However the focus of our attention and awareness has localized our awareness into the experience of being a human being rather than an unbounded infinitely creative being.
Our creative imagination is the door way to the experience of the infinity of our being. However, whatever we experience, mind will interpret and bias based on its past experiences as discussed in the topic, "The problem of mind and the experience of the Source of Creation - the trap of mind." Hence when we enter our creative imagination we donít see the infinity of our being although it is there always present to us. The experiences of mind are finite in their depth and breadth. Mind has no way to truly understand an experience of the infinite. What Jill Bolte Taylor described, the myths and stories of old, and what is in the Releasing Your Unlimited Creativity material is about the best we seem to be able to do to describe this infinity of our being.
They way to understand what is happening is to view our creative imagination as a great expansive plane or prairie. No matter which way you look it is endless. Our mind is like reflective fence we place across the prairie in the same way we would place a fence to keep animals from roaming. That is, our mind creates a fence to contain our awareness and keep it from roaming into the expansiveness and infinity of Creation. The fence created by our mind arises from the experience mind has had. Since it only knows what it has experienced, it sees the infinity of Creation only so far as it has personally experienced Creation. To mind, nothing exists outside its experiences. Hence the fence it creates to contain our awareness is an illusion. But it is nevertheless a real barrier to our awareness. The trick, so to speak, is to understand this illusion of mind and learn how to break through it, bypass it or step around it. A way to do this is discussed in the topic, "Gentle Phoenix for the ultimate mystical experience."
As for addressing the fears and issues raised in the statement above, we need to understand that the fears in the statement are based on what we think it means to be a human being. To believe we are simply a human being, and the sum total of the experience we have had in our human body, and what humanity has learned about being human, then all that is expressed in the statement above is absolutely correct. However, if we see ourselves as an infinite creative awareness and an aspect of the consciousness within, or behind, Creation as discussed in the Creation Story for the Creativity Perspective, which as chosen to localize itself in a human body to have an experience as a human being, then we are free to choose what we experience including both pleasurable and painful experiences, the dark or the light.. The problem is we simply forget why we chose to incarnate and that we ourselves have the creative ability and creative power to nonconsciously and/or consciously create whatever we so choose to experience. This understanding provides a whole new way of look at what issue and fears and raised in the statement above.
Yet, what is expressed in the statement above is the crux of the issue facing humanity. The perspective we have about ourselves and what it means to a human being in Physical Creation robs us of the very creative ability and creative power we need to create something which better serves us. To see ourselves as a human being created by God for Godís purpose, the Creation we experience is in deed a deep and profound mystery to us including who and what we are and our purpose for being here. We are a mystery to ourselves.
If, however, we take the view that we are somehow the creator of our experiences, and only intentionally forgot how we created what we created for the experience of the creation, everything changes. For example, we can say, as many mystics have said, we are God experiencing Its Creation. Or we can say we have been created in the image of God and given a free will by God to learn the depth and breadth of creative ability and creative power available to us. Or we can say we are an individualized aspect of the consciousness within, or behind, Creation and proposed in the Creation Story for the Creativity Perspective looking for a playmate. Any of these perspective allows something quite different. That is, that which is unknown is not a mystery. Rather is it just something we have forgotten for the purposes of experiencing Creation. That is, we, as a creator, created what we experience and we just forgot how and why we did what we did so that we can experience the creation. Here in this view, there is nothing mysterious about it. It is simply awakening to what we ourselves have forgotten. It is awakening to what is already inside of us within our nonconscious mind. The question we face is how to understand how we are in fact the creator of our experiences when we seem to at the mercy of something much more powerful. One perspective of how this is possible is the whole purpose of making the Releasing Your Unlimited Creativity material on the web.
What is important here, we can look at the fears and issues raised in the above statement in an new way. In doing so, we provide an interesting contrast with the perspective which gave rise to the statement. The remaining discussion provides some thoughts about each of the statements made.
"I am very cautious about blindly searching the subconscious for the mystery within." As a human, it is definitely a blind search for we do not know what we seek or are looking for. As a creator it is like looking for a set of car keys we forgot where we placed them. We know the ultimate experience is the experience of our own infinite being. As a creator, the questions is what boundary/limitation have we elected to place on ourselves so as to have the experiences we do. Analogously it is like being stuck in a car and forgetting what handle, knob or button opens the door. Our true self is the experience of complete freedom outside the car. Yet we are confined and trapped in the car. But no one put us there but ourselves and it is we, ourselves, that will need to get us out. We just need to experiment a little to find the correct button to push to see what opens the door. Once we know how to open the door, we can enter and leave the car whenever we want.
Of course, speeding down the road at 60 miles per hour is not a good time to step out of the car. So too our creations. There are certain activities in which we are engaged we need to be very present to what we do and follow, focus and be aware of our mind and what it has to tell us. At other times we are free to enter the infinity of our being. It is much like the dance between heart and mind. We need to know what it is safe to allow our awareness to be nonlocalized in the infinite aspects of our being out of mind and when to have our awareness localized to be in mind.
"It seems to me that you are proposing short cuts to inner vision by setting an intention to remove particular beliefs without understanding how they interconnect with the rest of the person." From the perspective of being a human being, this is entirely true. However, to know we are an infinite creative being who creates its experiences by imposing particular beliefs on ourselves to create the human experience, it is then only to realize by changing the beliefs we change our experience as to what it means to be human. So yes, any one belief is interconnected with the rest of the person but it is to realized we created the person in the first place by what we choose to experienced. The big question is, "Are we experiencing what we incarnated to experience or have the beliefs of enculturation, early programming and the experiences we have had distracted us from what we incarnated to do." Making the subconscious conscious is only about understanding why we made the choice we made in our current life. To access the intention for our life we need to go no farther than our subconscious mind. To understand why we chose to be a human being in the first place will require is to go deeper into the nonconscious mind into the unconscious and/or dormant aspects of our consciousness.
As for proposing a short cut to inner vision, that is the whole purpose of seeking a gentle phoenix. By having a clear understanding of the endpoint, an experience of the infinity of our being, we can bypass all that lies in between. If we wish, we can look at it as traveling from New York to San Francisco. Being on land, the logical approach is to travel over land. To do so we need to cross and enormous number of obstacles. Roads of course make it easier but it will still take quite a bit of time on the order of days. However, if we fly, the trip can be done in a few hours. In many ways this is the whole process described in the concept, "complex integration" were we go into our creative imagination to find solutions not normally available.
"It appears to me the dangers are very great because we donít know what lurks in the subconscious and it is capable of swallowing us as well as nourishing us." This is the comment that takes a most interesting twist when we change our perspective as to whether or not we are a human being or and infinite awareness creating its experience. As a human being, this is a true statement. To know we are an infinite awareness having the experience of a human being what lurks in the subconscious are simply the choices and reason we have made to have the human experience that we do. Rather than being swallowed, we find the freedom to return to the infinite awareness that we are. From the perspective of being a human being, the subconscious is a jungle to be traversed. From the perspective of an infinite awareness, we are faced with cleaning up a long neglected overgrown field that is the result of our own lack of attention to what was growing. Here the issue is do we have a perspective that allows us to see our nonconscious mind for what it is.
"If that spirit within seizes our immature or enculturated ego it could become a daemon or beast and throw aside all that we value including the most basic human values." From the human perspective we are the victim of that spirit within. However from the perspective of the spirit, it is only a choice to have a different type and kind of experience. On this point, what is not realized, is that often when our creative spirit is not being challenged in the life we are living or we are not doing what it incarnated to do, it may create conditions to either become more creative or push us toward the experiences it incarnated to have. At times for some, it can be seen as a daemon or beast arising from within and taking over our life. However, the issue with which we are faces is if we want to believe we are human or are we and infinite awareness and our creative spirit has a wisdom and purpose for what it creates in our life. The whole importance of the Jill Bolte Taylor experience and all the ultimate mystical end points are that we are an infinite awareness electing to have a physical experience. What we experience is ultimately our choice. The only issue is do we choose consciously or nonconsciously.
"It would seem we have the possibility of descending from our goal to become something superhuman, above how we now exist, to something subhuman below the most basic human values."
This catches my attention and is of great concern to me." This is absolutely true. But as the creator of our experiences as this infinite awareness, the choice is ours. As a human being we seek something superhuman and to transcend being human. We fear going backwards and becoming trapped. However, as in infinite awareness, seeking to be superhuman is an ego trip no different than anything else we seek and no better or worse than any other. It is simply another experience to be had. Allowing ourselves to become what we would consider to be subhuman is again our choice and most probably the result of a refusal to take responsibility for what we experience and blame others for what we ourselves are choosing to experience at some level of our being for whatever reason or excuse we may have..
"I have concern (rank terror) about throwing out tribal beliefs will-nilly and experimenting to see what arises." What arises is the experience of the infinity of our own being. That is the end result. Everything else in between is what we choose to experience for whatever reason we may have. On the issue of tribal beliefs, many tribal beliefs are based on fear and the perspective the human is the creation of some God who has Its purposes for us and we are at Its mercy. Social beliefs tend to be about what is good for society not necessarily the individual. Often societies see their constituents as expendable. The most common example being what a society decides to go to war. If we take the perspective the Creator didnít make junk and each of us arise out of the same material of Creation, we each have something to give. In this view it becomes incumbent upon us to learn to understand, live and be our truth rather than live the way others want us to live.
"I think we are naive and without putting some safety systems around this proposed process," It is true our inner world is reflected in the outer. To change our inner world our outer world will become different. The only question we face is how much change to we wish to experience in our outer world. Whatever we put in place that we call a safety system is just to preserve some aspect of experience we now have. Nothing wrong with this. After all, we are creator simply choosing to have whatever experience we desire to have. The question is, what are we keeping safe with our safety systems? A we allowing for the safe unfoldment of our creative spirit or are we putting it in a cage of our own making.
"I will undertake only the least threatening tribal (survival) beliefs." As a creator we are free to choose what we wish. No judgments on this. We just need to realize, the more we stay connected with tribal beliefs the more we remain with the bounds of our society and what it means to be human. We need to remember that the mind that created the problem we face is not the mind that will fix our problem. If what we desire to escape is of tribal origin or of the human collective, then we will have to step out of those beliefs to create what we desire.
"It seems some of the safety systems one can put in place are: telling a trusted friend what one is doing and him or her observe us over time;" From a human perspective, this looks wise. However if we understand the inner world is reflected in the outer, the issue is not to put external things in place to keep us safe. The issue is to create the safe place within and put in place internal checks, balances, alarms or the like that warn us of areas that will cause a significant impact in our external world. We need to look at what we desire in the external world does or does not allow us to hold our creativity sacred. If what is in the external world does not allow us to hold our creativity sacred, that external world is not serving us. The question is "Do we wish to live the truth of our being or live the truth of those external to us to keep them in our life?" Nothing needs to leave our life but there will be need to change our relationship to what is in our life. .
"plan to undertake only a limited number of beliefs, general intentions that encompass hundreds of manifests are too much for me." The infinity of our being is too much for our current mind. It is the nature of the physical experience of being a human being that our true nature is too much for our current mind. Our current mind usually does not have the minimum set of experience to comprehend that the awareness within is infinite and can span the depth and breadth of Creation here and now. Only in experimentation will one come to see this. If one desires to experience the infinite of their being, they have to be willing to put it all on the table. This does not mean they will die. Nor will it mean anyone will leave their life. They just have to be able to explore the infinite in their own creative imagination , do a few creative endeavors to see what it means to make thoughts manifest and not allow what their mind thinks and believes to interfere with that exploration.
Stepping into the infinity of our own being it is more than just thinking about the infinite and all the possibilities that exist. There is the need for some type and kind of action that will allow one to know the infinity of their being is real and to know the creative ability and creative power they have and how it works in the world. It is here the ability to creatively play and the concepts of ritual, metatheater, not doing and other creative activities such as art, music, dance and the like become very power tools. It is to use the rituals, metatheater, not doing and other creative activities in a playful way as vehicles to access and explore our creative imagination to push the limits within our own being with the intention of experiencing the infinity of our own being.
Creating rituals, metatheaters, not doing practices and other creative activities the like and acting in a playful way to perform these activities, or in simply exploring creative activities we can access the infinity of our being. But we have to create them and it is not something another can do for us. They can help us, the can gives us suggestions, they can initiation us, but we have to be intimately part of creating them and overlaying our truth. The "Seven Chakra Questionnaire for Rituals" and the information on creating rituals in the "List of Topics" were developed to help step into ritual and metatheater type of activities. Many of the exercises performed in the various related workshop found on the "List of Excercises" have also be used to explore the creative imagination and bring what we find into a physical expression.
The approach is to explore options in our creative imagination and then create a ritual/metatheater or a series of rituals/metatheaters and/or engage in other creative activities that encompass the depth and breadth of what we understand means to be human and the awareness available in the human body. Experiencing the infinity of our creative imagination increase the possibility of stumbling into an experience of the Source of Creation for we are at the doorway to the Source of Creation when we are able to be free to explore our own creative imagination and what it has to offer.