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Emptying oneself: We need to journey into the underworld and the
unknown to find our true identity. [This is the traditional
hero’s/heroin’s journey to find the treasure - the
gift we
incarnated to bring into the world.] The question is for all of us,
"How deep are we willing to we go?" Total or partial emptying of
oneself is a simultaneous spiraling "down" while paradoxically
spiraling "up." To explore the depth and breath of our
pain [and
pleasure] without the
mask – this means taking
ourselves apart
piece by piece.
NOTE: “Dying Before We Die” and “Emptying ourselves” more often than
not, normally go together. They are separated here for discussion
purposes. What needs to be understood that we can
die to something
but never empty ourselves of what causes the death. Continued
embarrassment in a way we act in the world could be such an example.
We suffer a death of
ego each time we are embarrassed but we never
change the actions that cause the embarrassment. Similarly, we can
empty ourselves but not die. For example, someone gets divorced and
empties themselves of their spouse but then never die to within
which causes the issue with their spouse such that they continually
repeat the actions with another.
Background
What is emptying oneself? Emptying oneself can be see as viewing
life through a filter. There is a way to view life that allows for
our truth to
freely unfold in the world. Then there are ways to view
life that do not allow the truth of who we are to be seen and
brought into the world..
Being a unique creation, we have something
very unique to offer the world and Creation. However, most of us use
a view or perspective of life that, in one or more ways, confines
who and what we are and does not let
our truth unfold. We need to
either clean and wash the inside and outside of the filter to see
clearly or we may have to replace the filter with a completely new
filter.
The work we need to do to replace the filter is much like cleaning
and washing the inside and outside of the filter but involves much
deeper and profound changes. If you wish, you can look at washing
the inner and outer of the lens/filter as a shallow dying before we
die and replace the lens/filter as a deep dying before we die.
Exactly what any one individual will need to do is unique to them
and it is essential that one learns to follow their
internal compass
before the start such work.
We each are an
infinitely creative being. When something truly
serves us
in life, we can feel and expansion within our being to one
degree or another, into the infinity of our own being. It is a
feeling that can be never ending for we are infinite. Sometimes it
is subtle sometimes it is quite huge and overpowering. Some have
described it as if we were a balloon being blown up with air. As air
is continually added to the balloon there the fear will “pop” but
yet we just continually expand bigger than we thought possible. The
feeling of expansion can be experienced as we feel full of life and
feel life is worth living. There is an excitement about life and
living. There is an in
inner satisfaction that is not dependent on
the external world.
When we feel we are contracting, becoming less that who we are, life
is not worth living and the like, we are being faced with
experiences that are not serving us. On this point, feeling of fear,
being terrified, discomfort, dissatisfaction,
pain, and the like are
do not necessarily imply we are not being served. More often than
not we are terrified when we face the infinity of our own being and
it can appear as that we are falling into an endless abyss. But
within these “negative feelings” is an underlying thread of
expansion and the inner knowing we are being served because we are
only moving past the perceived view of mind and mind is desperate
not face what it perceives will destroy it.
Before we undertake the journey of emptying ourselves we need to
know what it feels like to be served and what it feels like to deny
our truth. We need to know how to discern our personal truth. We
need to
calibrate our internal compass before moving forward.
The origins and essence of the filter we use arise from the fact we
all contain life experience which determine how and what we think
and believe about life. Additionally we have been given
understanding, opinions and ideas about life and the nature of
Creation which may or may not be true and/or accurate and/or may or
may not serve our uniqueness. The question is whether or not the
life and experiences we have and what we have come to think and
believe allows us to live true to who and what we are. Emptying
oneself is to remove all that does not serve. Removing that which
does not serve can be seen to occur at two levels - a shallow level
and a deep level
There are two analogies that can be used to view this emptying
process. One is the food we eat and the other is washing a filter.
We all eat food which we digest and the body takes what it needs
from the food and discards the remainder. The shallow level is
analogous to changing the food we eat to change the type and kind of
nutrients available to the body. Here we essentially kept what is in
our life but “feed” on it differently. The deep level is to go
inside and change what is extracted from the food such that whatever
we eat is digested differently. Similarly, when a filter or piece of
glass is dirty, there are two sides to wash. Look a the lense of a
telescope. Washing the exterior of the lens or filter, that which is
exposed to the world, is usually relatively easy. Washing the
interior of the filter or lens means we must find a way to go inside
and clean the lens or the filter.
Emptying at the shallow level will cause a death to things to which
we are attached in the external world. It is the classic approach of
changing jobs, joining a new club, emptying a room and buying new
furniture and the like. The changes can work, but they often only
mask what really gives rise to what we experience.
Emptying oneself at the deeper level is a journey into the
underworld and into the unknown of the forgotten life experiences.
At the deeper level it is a journey into the nonconscious world into
our subconscious (past experiences of our current life) and
unconscious (past experiences before this life). In this journey is
not so much that what we face is unknown but rather it is something
we have forgotten. In this regard, we know the full extent of the
hazards we face and we do know what we fear about the hazards. It is
just that we have forgotten and it appears unknown. Changes made at
the deeper level cause permanent changes in our life both internally
and externally. Changes made at the deeper level allow that
gifts we
carry to be revealed.
We each are a unique aspect of Creation and the Consciousness which
lies in Creation. We each have something to offer Creation that no
one else can give. However it is only when we live
our truth is that
gift, or those gifts, revealed. It making the journey inward, to
explore our inner forgotten worlds, we take the classic mythical
hero/heroine journey.
The journey we take is simultaneously a downward and upward journey.
As we move down into the depth of our being, we also experience an
expansion of our being and understanding who and what we are.
Traditionally, it would be said one become more spiritually
orientated as they dig deeper. What happens as we dig deeper, we
remove the bars of the
cage of our own making that keeps our
creative
ability and creative power confined. As we explore the
depth and breadth of our true creative ability and creative power,
we find that there are aspects of our being that transcend time and
space. We can enter realms of Creation we never knew existed and
have what has been traditionally described as a variety of types and
kinds of
mystical and/or
shamanic experience. In essence we being to
explore the
infinity of our own being and that of Creation
simultaneously.
To truly empty ourselves internally or externally relative to some
aspect of our life, we will cause a death. If you wish, look at
emptying as removing all the internal support structures for house
or building. In doing so, the building will collapse. However it is
possible to hold the structure up and if we do so, the empty space
will simply refill. To create the space for
our truth to come out,
we must allow the structure created by what we remove to collapse.
Similarly, if we cause ourselves to
die to an aspect of our being,
but do not empty ourselves, the external structure will simply
return and we are back to where we started.
There are two ways to empty oneself One is a fill and drain. The
other is to drain and fill.
Look at completely replacing a heated vessel half full of a yellow
colored water with a blue water but never draining the tank below a
certain minimum level or otherwise the heaters for the water will be
exposed damaging the tank. To fill and drain is to go through an
iterative process where we add the blue water and then remove the
mixed liquid only to add more blue water repeating the process till
all the water is blue. Draining the tank this way keep a well
established safety margin but the process is slow.
To drain and fill is to drain the tank as low as possible and then
add the blue water, similarly iterating the process, draining and
filling. In the end, we can replace the yellow water with blue water
but the fill and drain is much slower than drain and fill. However
in draining and filling you risk emptying the tank below the
designated level.
The most radical application of these principles relative
transformation comes from ancient Egypt. The idea was to teach
individuals about the immortality of which lies within each of us.
One method is obviously to teach people about immortality and give
them very safe experiences. In time, they may come to understand
such a concept. The other way was to put the individual into a
sarcophagus, close the lid and keep it close till they almost
suffocated creating near death experience. Then open the lid just
before the individual died. Sometimes it works, sometimes it didn’t.
So too our own emptying process. We can do it at a very slow level
or push to the edge where we almost become crazy or crazy in what we
do. For example it is reported Guirgief did something similar in
crashing a car to sustain extreme body injuries to work at
transcending the issue of
pain and the body.
Recommendations for emptying oneself
Mining the nonconscious mind: Find something to which you are
attached and deeply cherish. Remove it from your life. It may be
appropriate to remove it permanently . Become aware of what you feel
and why. Become aware of the memories that surface and the longing
for which the object of focus fulfilled.
Pull the string on why you
have the feeling, memories and responses that you do. In the
awareness of how and what you think and believe, you now have the
options of recasting the past experiences you have had in a way that
better serve who and what you are finding yourself to be and what
you desire to create.
Washing the filter/lens: A
truly creative endeavor is a journey into
the unknown. We do not know what we are to face. To prepare
ourselves, create a
ritual, ceremony and/or
metatheater where we
symbolically wash the inner and outer sides of the lens/filter we
are using to view life. The more emotionally intense the experience,
the deeper we will open ourselves to accessing what needs to be
changed. Become aware of what you feel and why. Become aware of the
memories that surface and the longing for which the object of focus
fulfilled.
Pull the string on why you have the feeling, memories and
responses that you do. In the awareness of how and what you think
and believe, you now have the options of recasting the past
experiences you have had in a way that
better serve who and what you
are finding yourself to be and what you desire to create.
The top and bottom of the box: The experiences of our life have
caused us to place our
creative spirit in a
cage of our own making.
It is constructed by the beliefs we hold and how and what we think
and believe. The shallow aspect of emptying ourselves is to move
laterally in life - change jobs, change partners, change our circle
of friends, change where we live and the like. These kinds of moves
punch out the sides of the box. However there is the topic and the
bottom of the body.
The
top of the box is how we have plugged ourselves into the unseen
aspects of Creation by how and what we think about God, the Creative
Powers of Creation, and the like. The
bottom of the box is how we
plug ourselves into physical Creation. It is about control,
ownership, the focus of our attention and awareness to ground our
creative life energy, sexuality and the longing for the
beloved/Beloved and the like.
Give yourself permission to explore
and punch out of the top and bottom of the box. Look to what really
allows you to feel connected with the unseen realms of Creation and
look to see what allows you to feel full of life, a
passion for
life, a desire to create life sexually and non sexually, and a
desire to be in physical Creation.
Become aware of what you feel and why. Become aware of the memories
that surface and the longing for which the object of focus
fulfilled.
Pull the string on why you have the feeling, memories and
responses that you do. In the awareness of how and what you think
and believe, you now have the options of recasting the past
experiences you have had in a way that
better serve who and what you
are finding yourself to be and what you desire to create.
The top and bottom of the box ritual: If exploring the
top and
bottom of the box described above is to difficult or too much to
face, look at doing a
ritual to get the memory imprint that you have
“crossed the line” and are looking to get the energy flowing to face
the top and bottom of the box. Put yourself into a box, cage or the
like and escape from the box. One ritual an individual did was they
were placed in a locked room and the only way out was to unlock a
locked window and use the fire escape to exit. Another was tied up
in break away chains. Become aware of what you feel and why. Become
aware of the memories that surface and the longing for which the
object of focus fulfilled..
Pull the string on why you have the
feeling, memories and responses that you do. In the awareness of how
and what you think and believe, you now have the options of
recasting the past experiences you have had in a way that
better serve who and what you are finding yourself to be and what you
desire to create.
A study program - fill and drain program: Begin some type and kind
of study program that will cause you to stretch past your belief and
how and what you think about yourself and your world at each and
every level of your being. As you learn new concepts, look to
replace existing beliefs with beliefs that will
better serve the
freedom of your
creative spirit. Seek to create as much internal
freedom as possible and allow it to filter out into the world and
all that you think, say and do. In doing so, you will give yourself
the gift of freedom and give the gift of freedom to the creative
spirit to all with whom you have contact.
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